Friday, September 18, 2009

closets, gummy bears and corporate ladders: part 2 [in reference to: october 2o, 2oo8]

Closets: I now have multiple closets, gallons larger than the pint-sized one I had at the creation of this blog. Linen closets, coat closets, food closets, dish closets, and best of all, two walk-in closets [small, but walk-in nonetheless], one for my roommate and the other for me. But apparently, I need not live in one, even in the middle of a Southern Californian city. The apartment is actually huge, and fairly priced; shocking.

Gummy bears: I now officially have an apartment in the heart of Los Angeles, to be shared by two apartment-mates for whom I have flown all the way out to Tennessee to help move/drive across the country. However, despite the mates and the new career, I may still have to consider surviving off gummy bears for the time being, until I can get settled in and feel secure in my new life. I guess I can allow myself the luxury of cereal too.. but it will not wean me off my addiction to stale gummy bears.

Corporate ladders: Okay, so my new job isn't exactly a huge corporation.. it's actually not a small one either. It's a small, simple organization run by 6 people plus a cart load of interns, but it's at the bottom on my corporate ladder. I'm exactly where I want to be, where I need to be at this point in time, and sooner or later it will lead me to bigger and better places, as in places I want or need to be in the future. However, for the time being, I am climbing, and I will have people groveling [okay, again, maybe not exactly graveling] at my feet, as I am the boss of the interns (]: But, more importantly, I have gotten myself the opportunity to make a difference, and to begin weaving myself my security blanket.

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I can't help but feel like time is going by too quickly, and I don't have enough time to spend with my friends and family as I grow up into my adult life; being back to my college town and trying to squeeze everyone into my tight schedule is stressful and frustrating, and I wish I had more time, or that I had had the opportunity to stay young longer.

I'm not even sure what this blog is about anymore; such a long hiatus from blogging has cluttered my mind full of incomplete thoughts and unexpressed feelings, and there's too much to say but not enough words.

But, one point is, it turns out I don't have to live stuffed into a closet, starve myself save for a few pieces of candy, or sacrifice my dignity/ambitions in order to get to the places I'm aiming for. Yes, I was willing to do everything short of selling my soul to the devil, but such extreme measures were not necessary because it seems some good is on my side, and has decided to take care of me, however last minute it showed up every time. I guess it's good for me; I've learned more about how to be patient, how to believe in myself and persevere, how to be even more thrifty and creative and crafty, how to take things in stride as they come.

I'm going places, and you don't even know how excited I am. Bring it on, world.


By the way, Tennessee is amazing this time of year with it's jungle-y greens and refreshing downpours. Every time I step outside it feels like I'm walking into a fish bowl, but other than that it's nice to be surrounded by everything I don't have in California. California is the home of my heart, but Tennessee will always follow close in suit. I'm sad I have to leave it again so soon, but now that I have watered my soul, I'm even more ready than ever to face whatever desert life has in store for me, if any are left. I'm being very metaphorical, just in case that part was vague.

to be continued [again], maybe.

Monday, September 7, 2009

about slacking. and new stuff.

what?! i haven't written a blog since may. what is going on here? time has definitely flown by since i moved back out west. that's the part about slacking.

the part about new stuff-- i have found a job, possibly a long[er] term career! again, what?! in this economy, i never thought i would find exactly the type of job i've been looking for, but after a whirlwind of events during a 5 day period, i was offered the position of program/development director at a non-profit organization called the *asian pacific american dispute resolution center. i really, really hate repeating that to people.. it's so long! anyway, so, i will not be going to law school anytime soon [maybe in about 3 to 5 years..], but i am moving out of loma linda [yes!] and into the heart of los angeles. i'm a little scared but much too excited to care!

that is the extent of this update; however, i shall become a more faithful blogger once again!