Saturday, January 17, 2009

night owl.

I am so excited about life I can't even sleep. I've had a brilliant idea, which I hope is still brilliant when I wake up later today, and I think I am really going to enjoy making this come alive!

I will keep posting information about what I am wanting to do exactly, but meanwhile, here are some things I just purchased with the money I've scrapped together for my adventures to come in a few weeks (and really shouldn't have spent, but this was a good investment, I promise)--





Yay! New red digicam (to match my (red)product iPod)..
[courtesy of amazon.com]







..an 8GB memory card friend for my new toy..
[courtesy of newegg.com]


..and a 500GB external hard drive to store all my fun and games in!
[courtesy of amazon.com]

Thanks to a new concept I've discovered called internet bargaining, all these high-tech electronic devices didn't add up to much, which I'm very thankful for. Everything should come in handy to jump start the beginning of the rest of my life (cliche, I know, but until I can come up with something more creative, it'll have to do)!

Please stay tuned and see what I might be able to create with my newfound freedom!

Thursday, January 8, 2009

anticipation.

Heart fluttering, jittery limbs, mind-racing, I can't sleep kind of anticipation.

Excitement.

I haven't felt like this since the second grade, when my crush gave me the biggest, most prettiest Valentine's Day card out of all the other girls in our class.

I never thought filling out any kind of application would be this exhilarating, let alone something that will get me back into school, but starting to take action about things I've been talking about doing for over a year has given me such a renewed sense of living.

Even if I don't get accepted to any of the schools or programs I want, it's still amazing to remember that I control my life and everything that happens in it. I don't have to succumb to what everyone else says I must (like keeping a job I hate until I find one I like) if I don't want to, and I can make whatever I want of myself.

Keep your fingers crossed for me and my life! Thanks friends (]:



[courtesy of sxc.hu]

Sunday, January 4, 2009

fear.

I am terrified; I am terrified beyond belief of what I am about to do, but if I don't do it, I might regret it for a very long time.

It is not a good plan, and it is not even very well thought out. It is beyond all reason, and I will quite possibly regret it extremely soon. But how will I know if I don't do it?

Quitting my job, just thinking about quitting the job I hate is the best thing I've ever done, and now that I've made the decision to do it, my heart will not quiet, and my mind is filled with chaos. I am cutting away my safety net because with it, I am not able to accomplish anything else; as long as I have it I will feel safe, comfortable, and I won't ever want to leave that behind.

I should find another job, I should get accepted and have plans to move to grad school, I should carefully consider the consequences, I should know what my next step is before I quit. But the more I think and ponder, the less I will want to act, so I have to dive into this.

Tomorrow I will put in my two-weeks' notice, and a new phase in my life will begin. I am completely ready for it, despite my uncertainties, so bring it on world, show me what you have to offer.


Ha, a fork in the road. (]:
[courtesy of google images]